Post by ALEXEI FERNAND ADRIANO on Jan 16, 2010 9:12:25 GMT -5
I T U R N ON A DIME, S P I N ME AROUND.
so you can S H I N E , shine right now !!
Just when Alexei thought this feeling would never end, something strange happened. Hands shoved him, and he felt his heart fall into the pit of his stomach. Stumbling back, his glasses fell down his nose a bit. Strange wasn't the best word for this situation. Perhaps horrifying. Renee sounded...disgusted, and this time it wasn't a mere movement that tipped this butler. His voice, his face. Everything about the younger man had changed for the worse. Lex stared in disbelief, wanting to say something. Convince him to calm down, lighten the mood, anything was better than standing there, wide-eyed, staring at the butler with eyes that seemed shattered. Which was kind of how he felt.
He couldn't help but feel stupid as well. This really was his fault, no matter what Renee had said. He let him walk out, or rather run, just staring after him whilst shaking. Why had he even kissed him to begin with? Did he forget about what had happened the last time he let someone in? Alexei leaned against the wall, placing the back of his hand against his forhead. As he did so, his mind played a heartbreaking home movie, it seemed, and he was the star. Death, sorrow, mental institutions. He certainly didn't want to repeat that. The butler wanted to cry, but he couldn't. Whether it was that he was incapable of it, or that he found strength from within, he didn't know. He just knew he wanted to get out of there and pretend this day had never happened.
Opening the door to silence, Renard was long gone by then, he ventured back to his room, eyes to the floor. He had been rejected.
